If I can only just pull you out of that dirt pile, your pearly whites might come out. But mom, I’m tired and crippled. I can only take one bomb at a time. But don’t worry, I’ll get you. I love you so much.
There you go again, talking without sound but the difference this time, it’s not you. The face, the built, the voice. It’s not the man I hated before, it’s someone else. I’m quite sure and man, my ears are getting deaf by my own voice. Oh wait, not my voice but my shriek. Thousand decibels perhaps.
Just so you know, every little thing I throw at you breaks my heart. My voice might be irritating but I cannot help myself. I need to fight back even if it burns the bridge. I just have to. I’m sorry but I’m not the underdog anymore.
Akala ko tapos na ako sa kabwisitan ngayong araw. Bakit humabol ka pa?
Sana kung mahal mo kong talaga di mo babanggitin sa akin yan, sana inisip mo na may rason naman talaga ako kaya ko nagawa yun. Na di na ako masaya. Pero bakit ganun? Ano ba talaga gusto mo? Pera lang ba? Sige maghintay ka lang. Maghintay ka lang talaga, makikita mo.
I was inside the bathroom scrubbing the yellow towel with my hands under the running faucet. I looked behind me and saw him lying on the couch with his right hand over his forehead. He looked so tired. Minutes later, I heard him coughing his lungs out. Oh poor boy.
I let out a sigh as I waved the towel in a circular motion on my way out.
I put the yellow thing-a-majig on his forehead. Then on his cheeks of tender siopao. Then on his neck. Then, I patted it on his arms. Then on his legs full of kinky hair.
I touched my chest, not for pleasure though but for checking my heart. It throbbed so hard, I can see my not so huge front bumps moving up and down so fast. 100 beats per minute.. Ok, that was an exaggeration. I think I’ll go for 90bpm. Haha!
Anyway, I want to move on with my life and I am taking a scary step right now. Wish me luck.
I can hear myself breathing so hard trying to keep my calm.
You were there and I can see your lips moving but I can’t make up a word. It’s either, my brain’s too tired to process or I don’t want to give a damn. Hmm, I guess both are undebatable.
Headphones over my ears doesn’t work: Your words together with your breath penetrate deep within and I find myself shudder every time I hear you speak. I can’t even look at your face without gagging.
Well, I know that you did try. You were nice to me for just a bit. But it doesn’t make you cunning. I knew what’s hidden beneath your mask. I knew your true intentions and it’s not about being nice to me. It’s about yourself. All about yourself. ALL ABOUT YOURSELF. ALL ABOUT YOURSELF. You selfish jerk.
I thought I can change, I thought I can like you or even force myself to give it a try. I was hopeful. That I can change. But I can’t. Everyday, every single time, you’re giving me reasons to quit. My fingers and toes aren’t enough to count. I’m sorry but it’s a little more than disgust. Really. Truly. I despise you.
I hate you from the bottom of my heart. And no one,even my mother can ever EVER change that.
Besides Eclipse, isa yan sa pagkakaabalahan ko sa mga susunod na araw. Oo nga pala, meaning nyan FACEBOOK MARKUP LANGUAGE. Parang tinatamad ako, malamang kailangan ko aralin ang ins and outs nyan. Pero hay, pera pera lang. :/
Siguro pag medyo may alam na ako, popost ko dito. Hehe.
..it made me sleep deprived. Yes! I love Mocking Jay so much that I resisted the need for a shuteye. I read the book from 9pm to 3am so that got me an hour or two to sleep. Well, I got nightmares like Katniss’ and honestly it looked so real, it scared the shit out of me. Rue’s and Prim’s face. FINNICK’s HEAD. Castor, Boggs, The people in the hospital, all of them looked so real. :| so yeah, I slept only for an hour. Haha! I can see my pimples digging their way out of my pores again. Booyah!
Great Job Suzanne, you had plucked my heartstrings really hard and with that, I love you.
PS: Sorry people, you have to read the book first to get an idea. Hehe!
I’ve heard about The Hunger Games before but wasn’t able to read it until yesterday. I was planning to read the book over the span of two days but got so hooked I finished it off in a matter of hours. I am even amazed with myself, kahit mabilis ako magbasa naiintindihan ko naman yung bawat chapters. Anyway, Suzanne Collins really pulled it off. There were a lot of twist and turns sa book na in one minute you’re confident about sa magiging ending but another minute later maguguluhan ka na naman. She had written it with out most simplicity and wit. I’m done with the second book, Catching Fire and I’m going to hopefully finish the last book tonight, or tomorrow morning. Ilang hours pa lang pahinga ko pero gusto ko na tapusin agad. Nakaka-thrill lang kasi bawat scenes.
Natutuwa rin ako kasi I’m back on reading books again. :) its not that I don’t have any time pero parang I got so preoccupied with other things and halos lahat naman ng books dito nabasa ko na so I don’t read.
Kahit wala akong ginawa gaano today but to lie on my bed and read, I feel so productive and energized. I guess I should be doing this more often.
Kung may masusuggest kayong other books.. Type it away. Yeah!
Disclaimer: Di po to yung company na pinagwoworkan ko ha. Sun as in araw ha. Hihi. Baka issueness e..
Due to my fascination with the Sun, I have to write this down: DI NA KITA MAHAL. Two days ago, while trying to get a shut eye, nanood ako nung pinapanood ng dad ko. Natgeo ata or Discovery, blah! Anyway, its said that our Sun, yes, the shiny, shimmering splendid I once loved is now at its middle age state.
It only has approximately 5 billion years to live na lang. And once it has reached its death: DOOMSDAY.
Yep, you read that right, doomsday. Katapusan ng mundo, ng sangkatauhan, ng mga ibon na lumilipad, ng mga isda na lumalangoy, ng mga ..ok corny na.
I don’t know if you’ll understand this, but here you go:
The Sun is about 4.5 billion years old now. It is now more or less 300 degrees hotter and 6% greater in radius than when it was first born. It will continue to increase,in temperature, luminosity and radius at about the same rate for about another 5 billion years. At that point the luminosity will be twice its present value and and will be 40% larger in radius. At this point there will be no more hydrogen in the core, forcing energy to take place in what is called a hydrogen burning shell. The core wil starts to contract as the outer layes expand. Over the next 1.5 billion years the surface should enlarge to about 3.3 times its present size while the surface cools to 4,300 degrees Kelvin. Next the Sun will rapidly swell and become a red giant star. Within the next 250 million years it will expand to 100 times its present size and 500 times more luminous. When the core temparture reaches 100,000,000 degrees Kelvin, all the rest of the helium will fuse into carbon in one big bang, causing one third of the solar envelope to be thrown out into space. After this the Sun will become brighter and the outer layers will be blown out into space in the form of a a dense solar wind known as a planetary nebula. At that point all that will be left is a white dwarf.
Na-gets nyo? Ako di ko gets e.
But anyway, 2012 end of the world might not be true, but one thing’s for sure. NOTHING IS PERMANENT so it means goodbye to you. >:))
Like what I said prior to this entry, I want to be a web designer. And one of the problems I think as a designer would be.. Cross-browser Validation.. Sa totoo lang, masakit sa ulo ang IE. :) I am no exception sa mga pagvavalidate, nagkakamali ako most of the time. Since I view my projects sa Firefox and not sa IE, dahil nga like I said, I HATE IE. I don’t want to discuss it any further, baka abutin tayo ng siyam-siyam. There are a lot of ways to css-hack, and sobrang noob-ish ko. Ngayon ko lang sinimulan gamitin ang IF condition sa css.
But before that, here are some of the tips I got from thesitewizard
Preliminary Tips for Coding
Design From Scratch
Most webmasters who have had to convert their existing website to CSS say that they find it easier to design their site from scratch in CSS than to try to find a way to reproduce their old layout in CSS.
Another reason for designing from scratch is that CSS allows you to do many things not possible using the old tables paradigm. Rethinking your entire design allows you to take advantage of the new possibilities.
Code to Follow the CSS Standards First
Many of the web designers hanging out in webmaster forums have found that it is far easier to develop their CSS code for a highly standards-compliant browser like Firefox first, and then only later add the workarounds to make their code work on IE, than to code for IE and then try to make it work for Opera, Konqueror, Safari and Firefox.
It is also logical to write for a more standards-compliant browser first: sooner or later, Microsoft is bound to issue a newer version of IE that will have the existing CSS bugs fixed. When they do so, all you have to do is to remove the workarounds which you created and you’re done. If you write your main style sheet with styles that are coded in a non-standard way to deal with IE bugs first, you will wind up having to rewrite everything when Microsoft fixes the bugs.
This is not to say that Firefox does not have its own share of CSS bugs. As such, my personal recommendation is to code with the two (supposedly) most standards-compliant browsers first, ie, Firefox and Opera, while at the same time periodically making sure that your CSS code validates with the W3 Consortium’s free style sheet validator. You can add the workarounds for IE later.
Use External Style Sheets and Take Advantage of the “Cascading” Aspect of Cascading Style Sheets
One way to handle the bugs and omissions existing in different browsers is to put all your standards-compliant CSS code in a separate (external) style sheet file that is loaded by every browser.
Then, when you find that a specific browser requires a workaround, use the methods listed below to load an additional style sheet designed specifically for that particular browser. The beauty of CSS is that you can redefine a different style for the same selector and have the last-defined style override all preceding definitions.
Placing your main standards-compliant style sheet and the browser-specific style sheets in different external files allow you to simply remove a particular file in the future should that version of the browser cease to be used.
There’s No Substitute for Testing
Even when you have validated your CSS code, you should still test your code manually using different browsers. There is no substitute for this: just because your code is standards-compliant does not mean that the browser will render it the way you want it to (or even correctly for that matter).
Later ipopost ko na yung sinasabi nyang HACK. Lunch time na!!
Over the last couple of months, I was having a hard time choosing the right PATH for me. I really love designing but at the same time I think programming is a plus for my career and money (of course. haha!). Its not that designing won’t get me any pay check but let’s just say that programming is better? And the thing is programming is a lot harder than designing. Err @#!$%#!#.
Anyway, to cut the story short. I got involved with some projects lately that made me realize my worth. Yes. I want to be a Web Designer! or anything with DESIGNER in/on/with it. I realized that designing is my passion. But of course, I will still put programming into good use.
I vow to the heavens above that I will walk on this path. Promise, cross my heart. Ayoko pa mamatay.